I have been dealing with these “adult” problems lately…. Work, health (both emotional and physical), finances, family, future…. Lots of F words. The past few days have been tough. Some friends and I were venting over lunch/phone yesterday about what is going on with each of us, and it turns out I am not the only one who is all grown up now. Hell, some of them are dealing with shit far superior to mine. The odd part about it that none of us had mentioned much, if anything, to the parents. I guess we really are older than we wish we were….

What I realized this week (again):

1. People treat each other like crap. Men-women, women-men, women-women, men-men, in any and all intereactions. I hate to admit it, but I am an asshole, too. I gossip, make fun of people I do or do not know, and I drive like a complete ass (more on that some other time). Still, I am not as nearly as bad as most people (I think). We need to realize we all need ane another. What are we so angry about?

2. You can only rely on yourself. Why should you expect someone else to lick your wounds? It is so selfish of us to dump our issues on the people closest to us, and then be dissapointed when they don’t fix them. You/I are/am a grown ass person, figure it out. On your own. Asking for help is one thing. Refusing to do anything about it yourself is another. I am guilty of this, too. I need to be more proactive.

3. Let shit happen on its’ own. If it doesn’t, then it wasn’t going to anyway. There is very little one can do to influence certain situations/other people. Now if I only actually believed this…..


And the good part: I joined a gym. I have my first session with a trainer tomorrow morning. Very, very excited. I promise I will go every day before or after work, and I will be there for at least 1 hour (bare minimum). Wish me luck….


Where Soul Meets Body

January 23, 2006

“Cause in my head there’s a Greyhound Station

Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations

So they may have a chance of finding a place where

They’re far more suited than here”

                                                 Death Cab For Cutie

They were the Musical Guest on SNL last weekend. I was so excited to see they are finally getting the attention they deserve, it clouded my judgement about how awful they sounded live. Tony, you were right. At least partially….. But who ever sounded good on SNL?

P.S. My favorite line from one of their songs (Crooked Teeth):

“You’re so cute when you’re slurring your speech

But they’re closing the bar and they want us to leave….”

Work is overwhelmingly slow today. No one wants to buy a car. It is way too nice outside-about 60F, like springtime for Hitler-and I wouldn’t want to go car shopping, either. Did a few laps around the dealership in my 4 inch heels, that’s how bored I am. Reminded myself of a certain someone who helped me move last year and lugged a big screen TV (the Big Heavy Old School kind) in her 4-inch-heeled Zara Boots with George. “In case someone cute walks by…”. Girl, I live in the ghetto. It don’t matter how cute they are. Of course, we had also killed a bottle of red wine while waiting for The Big Heavy Old School TV to arrive, just the two of us….

In days like these I really wish I was at AE, running around like a maniac, screaming at people who don’t know what they’re doing, and helping people who don’t know what they want. But that goes away quickly…. I just miss being insanely busy.


I mean, it’s me, it’s not like I have a problem speaking my mind…. After reading what other people have to say(for awhile now), I figured, “I can do this, I’m funnier anyway”…. So this is it. Hopefully it will at least help me keep in touch with people I care about, but never manage to talk to ( I assure you, I have good excuses…. real good…). Please, if you have anything to say, by all means, do…. I like comments.

 P.S. Contrary to popular belief, English is NOT my native language…. Do not let the lack of an accent fool you. Bear with me, my grammar is not all that far from fabulous.